It has been a super-long time since I've spent some time with my bloggity family. I missed you guys.
But I promise I have some really legit excuses...like having babies a stuff.
I'll dig a little deeper into a lot of the past craziness over the next couple of weeks, but right now I want to just take a few moments to share my heart and hopefully hear a little bit of yours.
So...how's your heart today?
Mine is a little "wonky".
A lot happened in 2015. The way my life looks as I sit in my bedroom at 2:49 a.m. and type these is nowhere near the way it looked on this very same day one year ago. I entered 2015 feeling beat down spiritually and emotionally. I felt like I was drowning as the weight of life held me down. If it hadn't been for the infectious smiles of my previous Felicity Grace, or feeling the kicks and rolls of my still then baking baby boy, I'm not even sure if anyone would have seen me smile. As January moved along I started to see a glimmer of hope that things would turn around, but it all came to a screeching halt in February and I found myself in very unfamiliar territory.
Have you ever felt like God hadn't thrown you a curve ball, but more like you finally realized the game He wanted you to play all along wasn't even baseball, but soccer and you'd ended up in the wrong arena some kind of way? Like He wasn't attacking your happiness, but that you were finally realizing that He wanted you to press towards His dream for your instead of your own?
Yep...that's where I was.
Being suddenly thrust into a position where I had to regroup and recharge almost overnight forced me to reconnect with the woman I was when I first gave my life to Christ in 2010.
I was so sure of who I was. I was certain of who He'd called me to be. I hear people say how they struggle with God's plan for them, but He honestly placed His desires for me in my heart early in my walk. I was nowhere near perfect at following His commands, but I walked with confidence nonetheless because I knew I was walking in the right direction.
But somewhere along the way I took a wrong turn.
I got comfortable.
I once heard someone say that we shouldn't get too excited when it appears we aren't getting attacked by the enemy because that just means he doesn't see us as a threat anymore.
Just think about it. Why does the enemy have to spend time throwing extra obstacles in your way to distract you from the path God is trying to take you down when you're doing a great job at just halfway living for Him anyway?
...let that sink in for a minute.
Sometimes the most damaging time for us to make big decisions is when life seems to be set on cruise control.
Anyway, there were some major shifts for #teamFLORES in 2015, and it ended up being one of the most fruitful pruning seasons of my life. It's amazing how God can still bless you even while you're struggling to crawl through the consequences of your mistakes.
He's just cool like that.
I'm excited to have this little space of the Internet up and running again, and I hope y'all will stick around with me throughout the rest of the year.
But again, before we part ways for the morning, how's your heart today? I'd love to have a little chat with you in the comments below if you're up for it.